purplerabbits

Hmm. I think I have 5 friends I'd drop everything for now.

2 here in Edinburgh, fairly recent friends.

1 in Glasgow, a friend from Uni.

2 from school, one in Leicester, one in South Africa.

Two out of those I've had sexual feelings for too. I do find, however, that my relationships do tend to start off as friendships, then become sexual. What I haven't seen happen as yet is a relationship to stay in my "true friend" bracket after it has ended. I think I need to keep my distance a little more than that sort of friendship allows. Friendly, yes, more than acquaintances, certainly, if they want that. But the distance is still there.

I've also got a circle of friends who I do value and appreciate, and show parts of myself too, but for some reason have never stepped into the true friend category. I think in parts that's due to whether they've been there for me in a bad situation. Once a friend has proven themselves in that way, I tend to be intensely loyal, but if a friend lets me down, I tend to back off.

I don't know if you read Sally (winterthing's) LJ? She wrote an interesting piece on circles of friends a few months back. I don't know if it's filtered or not. Poke me sometime and I'll try to find it for you if it's public.