purplerabbits

I am determined to catch up on this self-imposed meaningless task, and say ten things about me beginning with each letter through November. It's hardly nanowrimo, so it should be doable...

H is for happy, which I am not right now because I am:-

1. Hurting: I have a persistent pain in my left shoulder and neck which is making me extremely huffy.
2. Heavy: I know I already said I am fat, but the physical heaviness of the me needs some emphasis. It makes some things difficult or impossible, like being allowed to horse ride, and other physical activities which come up in my special offer emails from time to time. It also makes it hard for other hurty bits of me to heal, like knees and ankles.
3. Hirsute: I have a lot of body hair, which a particularly horrible hypnotist once suggested was the root of all my problems. He was a Freudian, which may be where I went wrong. I do not shave my legs, or my underarms unless they get particularly smelly in the summer, and when I do I always regret it. I usually keep my moustache too, but that one is much more prone to self image problems.
4. Hateful: I hate myself a lot, even though I try not to, there is still a lot of self hate in there.
5. Hideous: I have bingo wings and cankles and other horrible words which are applied almost exclusively to women
6. Heart-sick: I hate having all this hate for myself. Which is horrible
7. Harsh: not only on myself, but I have been seen to be hard and unfeeling
8. Halting: I have a limp from the hurt and the heaviness
9. Haggard: I am a hag, I have been told this word can be positive, but not for me
10. Hoping: that having got some of the harmful h-words out of my system I will feel better. Before I do I, I shall drink some T